86 - No Place

This song is a real gut wrencher for me.

It comes from that wonderful show, Lost.  This particular song comes from the end of Season 4, which is one of my favorite seasons.  I won't spoil it in case you have yet to watch the show, but it is beyond perfect for the moments it is played over.  And like many great musical moments from that show, it's done with no dialogue, because the music carries the emotion of the scene.  I get misty when ever I see that scene or listen to the song.

And not just because of the show.

Two years ago, after deciding I was going to leave Illinois I had a good long conversation with my friend Steve.  He was the first person I spoke the words out loud to about moving.  It was New Years Eve, and we were planning the nights activities for the Bin.

After that conversation at Wendy's, I got in my car and started up my iPod.  And this is the song that greeted me...

Song 86
        "There's No Place Like Home" from Lost Season 4, by Michael Giacchino

I'm not ashamed to say I was full on weeping by the time the track was over.  Deciding to leave Plainfield/Joliet was a thing.  There had been so much healing for me there, wonderful friendships, and a good bit of growth, emotionally, spiritually, financially.  It was knowing that I would be saying so-long to a lot of amazing people who still continue to impact my life today.  I so want to list your names but it would fill up this post and my mind not being fully awake would probably miss someone.  Like Eddie.

This song takes me to that moment, and the day we loaded up the moving truck, and pulled out of Joliet.  It would have been a far more difficult task if not for my friend Jess traveling with me.

Also, there is a whole odd connection in my mind to my life and the show Lost.  You can read about that over here.  So this song pulls very strongly at me.

The reason it's here on this list, is well, I just plain like it.  The soft piano at the beginning and gentle swells into the strings are very Autumnal.  It's forlorn, but hopeful and beautiful.  It carries sadness and delight.  The end is just a new beginning that hasn't taken root yet.

All that, and I just have to add, Home is not a specific location.  At least not for me.  They say home is where your heart is, well, then I have homes all over the world.  And I love visiting every one of them.  Some I haven't even been to.   Yet.

grace, peace + hope
-Jesse